Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Weight Observations
Why is it that no matter how much weight I lose, I still think I look exactly the same? I had my pt test (my run test for you non-mil types) recently and you have to weigh in. I weighed in at 113lb. I haven't weight 113lb since I was a high school anorexic!! Yet, when I look in the mirror, all I see is my poochy tummy, flabby butt, and thunder thighs. Am I totally messed up in the head or is this something that all women go through? It's so frustrating because I will tell myself, if I just lost 5 more lb I would be happy, but then I lose it and I'm still not happy. What is wrong with me!!??
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:( I remember being skinny :(
I think it's a woman thing. I blame hollywood.
I think everyone feels that way... the best thing to do is try to get some perspective on it. You have to really look at everyone around you and realize that compared to them you look great! (I do this in the locker room at the gym a lot--any place people wear swimsuits in Europe is also really good for this) The worst thing to do is stand in front of the mirror for long periods of time analyzing your flaws. And by the way, the last time I saw you (at my wedding) I thought you looked fantastic and very tiny!
Sigh. Sister, you are seriously a lovely woman! I am not going to argue with you - I think to a degree you are messed in the head! You are beautiful the way you are. But being your sister, I would think that if you were 200 lbs too.
Maybe this trick will help you- it's something I have started doing recently. First, I just accept that the women in my family have a very definite body shape. When you go to family reunions its like standing over the pear bin at the green grocers.
The only reason anyone defies their genes is because they have money and time to devote to the cause. And I get the impression that for some people it's a LOT more time and money than for others. Them's the breaks, unfortunately.
That being said, it's even worse to berate yourself for worrying about your looks. We all do it, there's no helping it. Just accept that sometimes it's going to piss you off. I find when I can at least admit to myself, "okay, today I feel like a fat cow and it's making me sad", it makes me feel a little better. Doesn't make the "fat cow" feeling go away, but at least the problem isn't dominating me anymore.
It seems to me like weight is not the issue but certain "problem areas" you are dissatisfied with. I agree that it is close to impossible for any woman (especially one from OUR family) to be 100% accepting and pleased with our bodies.
I personally thought you were looking a little scary-thin when I last saw you, so if losing weight is not making you happier, maybe you can look for new/different ways to target your tummy/thighs etc.?
How depressed/aggrevated does this make you? How often?
Honey,
First,I think you are absolutely beautiful! Second, I think you are absolutely insane!!
Tim - you should have asked us first before you committed to her. We could have told you she was insane!
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